When You Can’t Feel God… and Then You Do

I’ve been carrying the weight of an ongoing lawsuit for over two years now after a contractor completely messed up my house. I haven’t been able to live in it. I’ve spent money I didn’t plan to spend. I’ve lost time, peace, and honestly—some hope.

It’s been heavy. And earlier this week, I found myself talking to God with a raw kind of honesty. I said, “If You’re really here, I need You to show me. I need to feel You, because right now, I don’t.”

I wasn’t angry. I was just empty. Tired. Worn down by waiting. It’s hard to keep trusting when nothing is moving.

But then… a shift.

It started small. Something I had been quietly dreading turned out to be no big deal—just a small weight lifted.

Then I had a conversation with someone from my church—a leader I hadn’t connected with before—and it was exactly what I needed. Encouraging. Grounding. Real.

Later that night, I looked up and saw a rainbow. It felt like a wink from Heaven.

It was exactly what I needed. A step. A sign. A way forward.

All those things might not look like much to someone else. But to me? They were answers. Gentle ones. God didn’t come crashing in with thunder—but He showed up. He reminded me He’s still writing this story, even if the middle chapters feel long and messy.

So here I am, doing what I need to do—working, trusting, and choosing to believe that just because things feel stuck doesn’t mean they’re over.

If you’re in a season where you can’t feel God, I just want to tell you: He might be closer than you think. Keep your eyes open. Keep your heart soft. Even the quietest moments can hold the biggest proof.